Well these last few weeks have really challenged my mental state. I recently broke up with the girl I was seeing who had moved in. only after 2 months of dating. It was kinda a spare of the moment. She needed to find a place so I had suggest well hey lets try. Well I was horrifically wrong. Things were fine for only a short amount of time before things started falling apart. I have learned that dating and living with someone is 2 totally different things. I broke things off with her but cause she had 2 small children, I told her she could stay in the front from for a month or 2 till she saved for first and last. Well things just got worse from there. I seen no real motivation in finding or saving for that matter and it just lurked me. I talked to a couple of people and got some advice on my situation. I was told to go see the police and talk. Which I did and found she had no right in being there and cause it was my last resort had her removed.
Now only two weeks prior I was kinda seeing a girl that I was getting to know. I thought things were going fine. We were having fun and enjoying each others company. Then I found my so called best friend slept with her. I was crushed and deeply hurt, not cause she did it but cause my so called friend just did it with no thought in outcomes and such. In doing this he hurt a few relationships. I sadly had to let our friendship go.
With all this that has happened I have decided to just date the odd time but in no way I'm going to be getting into a relationship anytime soon, let alone let someone move in with me. I am just going to try and enjoy my life. Cause life is too short to worry about the people that hurt you. You have to let them go and move forward!
Almost 2 weeks from now me and my brother will be heading up to our usually cottage for a week. I am hoping to just relax, don't worry about a thing and fish like hell!
Although when I do get home I have to seriously figure out how to get rid of my house. Right now I feel trapped and not able to get out. I'm sure in another 1-2 months I will not be able to make my mortgage. I may make it but in exchange not be able to pay any of my bills :( Just that is very stressful. my house does need work but I got no money to get it up to par to get hopefully what I paid for it. Sometimes I think of just walking away but in reality where would I go? I have alot of stuff that I have to take with me.
So ya right now I'm kinda lost in what to do booo :(
Sean you have a helluva last cpl mths. Yes allowing her to move in was kind of too quick, nice of you but bit you in the ass in the end. And your next date holy shit, she slept with your best friend??? I would be totally pissed at her and your friend. But if this was a life long friend don't lose each other over a woman, she only wins. On top of all that, you have your house to worry about. Did you ever consider perhaps getting a grant to do some of the work. How about going after your Disability CanadPension and isnt there some kind of program you can also go on there? Now your mortgage you could perhaps talk to your mortgage company and tell them what has been going on the past cpl years with you health wise and perhaps they would allow you to just pay the principle until you got back on your feet. That's actually what we did when I had to relocate to Toronto, and still only paying principle until my Pension starts. Or talk to a broker about filing bankruptcy, if you do not have much equity into your house you may not lose it. There are so many options out there. Don't think of the worse just yet. Get all your cards on the table and see where your next move should be. Wishing you all the luck in the world in figuring out what you can do to make life easier for you.
ReplyDeleteVery interesting, good job and thanks for sharing such a good blog. Your article is so convincing that I never stop myself to say something about it. You’re doing a great job. Keep it up, find here a actual link Free Auto Clicker
ReplyDelete